Recently I have been feeling very happy and calm with myself. I mean, obviously I'm stressing out about my fast approaching exams but besides that, I've been in a pretty good mood. Over this -much needed- two week break from school, I have accepted/admitted to myself that I've been wrong about lots of things and I've managed to convince myself that I do not need to think about a certain horrible person and I simply cannot let thoughts about him control my life. Obviously I've still been emotional about him and other stupid things but not as much as I used to and to be honest, that's a real achievement for me. I just need to slowly stop referring to what happened to me in every bloody conversation as I can tell it is driving my friends insane (and no wonder!) and if that stops then hopefully, I'll have overcome the terrible incident and be normal again. Of course I don't expect to never think about it, I just hope I think about it a lot less.
As I allow myself to meet new people and experience new things, I am becoming happier and happier because those new friends and experiences are exciting and fun. (despite some friends and family being slightly unhappy with my decisions, although they were right and I did put myself in a lot of -potential- danger but everything turned out alright so it doesn't matter now).
I now realise I have no idea where this is going or what else to write.... I am terrible at endings so, yeah.. the end?
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