This is all getting too much for me.
First a guy in my year sexually assaults me,
then I have to deal with him every day at school and in class,
my parents don’t even try to be sensitive about it,
I always feel sad and alone and weak and stupid and pathetic,
my friends (not all of them obviously but some) make me feel even worse when I tell them what’s wrong so I just try and hide it now,
I started self harming but not hard enough to break the skin
although it really fucking hurts
because I deserve it because everything the guy did to me is my fault,
I’m struggling with school a lot because I can’t concentrate
and i’m really stressed about the fact I’m probably gonna fail all my exams and I’m falling behind with lots of the work because I’m a thick idiot,
I want to run away and never come back
because its not like anyone will miss me
and now I cut my wrist with a razor
and it still hurts after an hour and there was blood
and I’m just so so fucking ashamed of myself
and everything I’ve been through and have become.
I don’t want to be here anymore.
It’s horrible and I can’t cope at all.
